Amazing!

9/2015 

So....anyone who says that therapy is a waste of time....is lying, because they probably haven't actually attempted it. Therapy is just talking to another person who actually is paid to listen to you. Now, if you get a good therapist they will actually talk back and help you. :) That is key.

You must find the right one...I did. I am a better person for it. And put the hard work in!

5 months ago I felt lost. Now, I can't believe I didn't take the time to get to know who I am sooner.  I'm amazing.

I told my therapist that I have been told I was amazing a couple times before. She told me, I don't want you to hear it from others, I want you to believe it.

I finally do.

I completely changed my life.

I've allowed myself to actually care about me. I am officially free to be me.

And, it is an amazing feeling.

Maintaining.....

This blog was created when I was single hence the "free to be me" but it seems as soon as I get into a relationship I am no longer free to be me, and I end up being okay with that. Which as soon as I am single again I realize that, That is NOT okay! So I must take this new found knowledge into my next relationships and continue to be ME.

Life isn't solely about maintaining a relationship with other people. It is about maintaining a relationship with your self and others. However, I truly think that having a strong relationship with yourself is very important. 

The real adventure begins

I realized something was not right with me about 10 years ago, but 5 months ago was when I truly started to work on it. My best friend Ally basically gave me a GIANT kick in the face. And it worked. Note: She attempted this many many times throughout the course of our friendship (kinder-garden to current) 

 I think relationships and friendships are for us to learn who we are and to grow as a person. In healthy relationships people can grow together.

 I went on what my friend Jodi would call a "Grand Adventure" this summer. I went on a road trip to so many amazing places.

Right after my trip I decided to visit my parents in Honolulu, Hawaii.  It was by far the greatest decision I ever made. I learned so much about myself and I got to be in the healing ocean waters. I doubted it in the beginning. But floating in the warm salty ocean waters is the greatest experience I've ever had. Very freeing. 

Here I come 2015!

When you start to realize doing the same thing every day can't make you happy, it's time to fix it. Change it; make life the life you've dreamt of living.

I could decide to listen to negative people in my life that believe only negative things will happen. But listening to that will decrease my chances of believing in me and knowing that I have the potential to be amazing.

On that note, I have made a choice. I choose to be happy.

I live in the most beautiful of places in the United States and I have yet to experience the true beauty of it all. The time is now. Woot... here I come 2015!